Forgiveness

I felt a pull today to revisit some old issues. I decided it was time to respond to the messages from friends I had stopped talking to and to forgive them and apologize too. A hard thing for me to do is to apologize when I feel like I did the right thing. But as I grow this year with my goals and faith I'm learning that apologizing doesn't have to mean you were wrong, you can just apologize for the hurt you may have caused. You see, even when you do the "right" thing, that choice can sometimes hurt the people around you.

In my case, it was the decision to not be around drugs and abuse, to not stand around and watch my friend fall ("tough love"). And even though that may have been a good decision, she suffered. You see she lost her baby and while she struggled through that and had a funeral, she was alone. I wouldn't wish that on ANYONE.

I feel such a relief to not have ANYTHING weighing me down, even though I didn't think it was bothering me at all. No matter what has happened today I've come at it with a smile and anything I can do to maintain my peace and grace I will do.